Perspective?

I'm going to force myself to write something from her perspective.  I don't really know much about it, but I know it must have been...I don't know, difficult to live with someone you don't love for a long time.  i can at least empathize with that. 
I loved her for a long time without really wanting to, and then when I wanted to, I didn't because I couldn't believe I could trust her.  so much craziness at that time that I can't put my finger on what was actually happening except feeling betrayed, and watching her feel sort of guilty, but not to me.  Guilty in a way that wasn't apologetic, it was like resentful guilt.  Like I shouldn't have been pissed, or upset at all with her because her intentions weren't to betray me.  go figure.
I can see this will be a difficult "assignment" considering I'm already getting agitated just writing out the idea.  Should be interesting, or completely miserable.  Not sure what I'm going for here.  I know I have to get up at four, so I am going to bed now.