Experiment

I've been taking notes a long, long time.  Refuting assumptions, watching, and learning.  I've reached a definitive conclusion:

I want to be human. 

There are too many things I've denied myself.  Too many paths left untrod, loves unrequited, and dreams unfulfilled.  I see where I went wrong now and I desperately want to go back and tell myself what I've learned, but it's too late.  I want to know what it's like to enjoy life and not apologize for it.   I want to know what I've missed.  I'm jumping in with both feet and If I find out I can't swim I'll finally be just like everyone else.  And I won't have any regrets.